I wanted to talk today about what makes me feel "well" or good about myself.
By nature I have low self esteem about myself and always have. I always think someone else has a better life, better clothes, more fun, better body, and the list goes on. And for some reason I get jealous when other people are running or racing for example and I am not. I don't know why these things make me jealous, because they really shouldn't at all. I don't know if it's because I feel left out or I really don't know?
I guess to get back to the point.... Some days I don't want to get up at 5am and workout or run in the heat when it's 100 degrees, but if I skip a workout then I feel even worse about myself. I basically go through the rest of day wishing I didn't sleep in or skip my evening workout. I don't think it's so much that one day off is going to ruin my training plan, but I think it's more or less how I feel if I don't do it, which is like crap!
So by sticking to my own made up training plan it makes me feel good about myself! It might be an awesome run or a crappy swim, but I still feel good about myself because I got my butt in gear and did something! I think without working out I would feel 10x worse about myself. Although I am looking forward to my vacation and a break from training because I think you need that as well so that you don't get burned out and hate what you're doing.
What makes you feel good about yourself?
Happy Wed all :)
Sometimes the knowledge that I know I will be mad at myself later for sleeping in is really the only thing that gets me up at 5am! That and the fact that I know I will feel better when I finish (even if it isn't a great workout).
ReplyDeleteHey - I totally get this! I spent a good portion of last week beating myself up about the fact that I had to keep changing my schedule. Eventually, I decided that I needed to let it go because there was nothing I could do about it. That took some of the pressure off and I fit in what I could throughout the week. The cumulative was pretty good all things considered, even though not a single workout went as planned. I felt good that I was doing something, and I felt good when I took some extra rest since we weren't getting a lot of sleep at the conference. The shift of perspective made a huge difference!
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way and I totally agree w Allison that I NEVER want to wake up but I know ill be pissed at myself all day if I dont!
ReplyDeleteAww, we all have this problem, I think. It's unfortunate! I try very hard to focus on the positives, and to catch myself when I start to compare myself to others.
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